Tuesday, December 28, 2004

Universals

Words of weapon witness words watch words
words to pick the bones of words
and to dig up words
from mass graves
unmarked burials
where words die unmemorialized

scarred.

Words to entangle bodies
wrapping around them like arms
protecting engulfing. Mother words. Womb words.
Father words. Words that know the secret prayers
every hurting body utters.

Words to combat silence. Words to counter fear. Words to unravel
barbed wire fences that cut themselves
into the tongue of those
made speechless by war
bleeding victory from history
until they are inseparable.

Words to make the wounds unforgettable unforgivable inexcusable.
Words to hold people accountable.
Words to remind people of how human
animal earth and universal

they really are.


-in memory of Susan Sontag's life, work, activism and art-
Susan Sontag, the author, activist and self-defined "zealot of seriousness" whose voracious mind and provocative prose made her a leading intellectual of the past half century, died Tuesday. She was 71. Sontag died at 7:10 a.m. Tuesday, said Esther Carver, a spokeswoman for Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in Manhattan. The hospital declined to release a cause of death. Sontag had been treated for breast cancer in the 1970s.

NOT ONE DAMN DIME DAY

Hows about a little CIVIL disobedience? Vote with your pocketbook and your conscience.
peace!


Not One Damn Dime Day - Jan 20, 2005

Since our religious leaders will not speak out against the war in Iraq,
since our political leaders don't have the moral courage to oppose it,
Inauguration Day, Thursday, January 20th, 2005 is "Not One Damn Dime
Day" in America.
On "Not One Damn Dime Day" those who oppose what is happening in our
name in Iraq can speak up with a 24-hour national boycott of all forms
of consumer spending.

During "Not One Damn Dime Day" please don't spend money.
Not one damn dime for gasoline.
Not one damn dime for necessities or for impulse purchases.
Not one damn dime for anything for 24 hours.
On "Not One Damn Dime Day," please boycott Walmart, KMart and Target.
Please don't go to the mall or the local convenience store.
Please don't buy any fast food (or any groceries at all for that matter).
For 24 hours, please do what you can to shut the retail economy down.
The objective is simple. Remind the people in power that the war in Iraq
is immoral and illegal; that they are responsible for starting it and that it is
their responsibility to stop it.

"Not One Damn Dime Day" is to remind them, too,
that they work for the
people of the United States of America,
not for the international corporations
and K Street lobbyists who represent the corporations
and funnel cash into American politics.

"Not One Damn Dime Day" is about supporting the troops.
The politicians put the troops in harm's way.
Now 1,200 brave young Americans and (some estimate)
100,000 Iraqis have died.
The politicians owe our troops a plan - a way to come home.
There's no rally to attend.
No marching to do.
No left or right wing agenda to rant about.
On "Not One Damn Dime Day" you take action by doing nothing.
You open your mouth by keeping your wallet closed.
For 24 hours, nothing gets spent, not one damn dime,
to remind our religious leaders and our politicians
of their moral responsibility to end the war in Iraq
and give America back to the people.


"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed people can change the world: indeed it's the only thing that ever has!" Margaret Mead

Thursday, December 23, 2004

Torture reconsidered (a truthout essay)

This is an interesting article from http://www.truthout.org


"Torture Reconsidered: Shock, Awe and the Human Body"
By William Pfaff The International Herald Tribune

Wednesday 22 December 2004

PARIS - A historian in the future, or a moralist, is likely to deem the Bush administration's enthusiasm for torture the most striking aspect of its war against terrorism.
This started early. Proposals to authorize torture were circulating even before there was anyone to torture. Days after the Sept. 11 attacks, the administration made it known that the United States was no longer bound by international treaties, or by American law and established U.S. military standards, concerning torture and the treatment of prisoners. By the end of 2001, the Justice Department had drafted memos on how to protect military and intelligence officers from eventual prosecution under existing U.S. law for their treatment of Afghan and other prisoners.
In January 2002, the White House counsel, Alberto Gonzales (who is soon to become attorney general), advised George W. Bush that it could be done by fiat. If the president simply declared "detainees" in Afghanistan outside the protection of the Geneva conventions, the 1996 U.S. War Crimes Act - which carries a possible death penalty for Geneva violations - would not apply.
Those who protested were ignored, though the administration declared it would abide by the "spirit" of the conventions. Shortly afterward, the CIA asked for formal assurance that this pledge did not apply to its agents.
In March 2003, a Defense Department legal task force concluded that the president was not bound by any international or federal law on torture. It said that as commander in chief, he had the authority "to approve any technique needed to protect the nation's security." Subsequent legal memos to civilian officials in the White House and Pentagon dwelt in morbid detail on permitted torture techniques, for practical purposes concluding that anything was permitted that did not (deliberately) kill the victim.
What is this all about? The FBI, the armed forces' own legal officers, bar associations and other civil law groups have protested, as have retired intelligence officers and civilian law enforcement officials.
The United States has never before officially practiced torture. It was not deemed necessary in order to defeat Nazi Germany or Imperial Japan. Its indirect costs are enormous: in their effect on the national reputation, their alienation of international opinion, and their corruption of the morale and morality of the American military and intelligence services.
Torture doesn't even work that well. An indignant FBI witness of what has gone on at the Guantanamo prison camp says that "simple investigative techniques" could produce much information the army is trying to obtain through torture.
It is hard to avoid the conclusion that the Bush administration is not torturing prisoners because it is useful but because of its symbolism. It originally was intended to be a form of what later, in the attack on Iraq, came to be called "shock and awe." It was meant as intimidation. We will do these terrible things to demonstrate that nothing will stop us from conquering our enemies. We are indifferent to world opinion. We will stop at nothing.
In that respect, it is like the attack on Falluja last month, which - destructive as it was - was fundamentally a symbolic operation. Any insurgent who wanted to escape could do so long before the much-advertised attack actually began. Its real purpose was exemplary destruction: to deliver a message to all of Iraq that this is what the United States can do to you if you continue the resistance. It was collective punishment of the city's occupants for having tolerated terrorist operations based there.
The administration's obsession with shock and awe is a result of its misunderstanding of the war it is fighting, which is political and not military. America's dilemma is a very old one.
It is dealing with politically motivated revolutionaries, in the case of Al Qaeda, and nationalist and sectarian insurgents in the case of Iraq. It has a conventional army, good for crushing cities. But the enemy is not interested in occupying cities or defeating American armies. Its war is for the minds of Muslims.
Destroying cities and torturing prisoners are things you do when you are losing the real war, the war your enemies are fighting. They are signals of moral bankruptcy. They destroy the confidence and respect of your friends, and reinforce the credibility of the enemy.
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Quick meditation on representation and expectation

Today I read that G.W. was Time Magazine's man of the year (2004) and Brittney Spears is performer of the year...Do you suppose there is a link there? Conspiring minds want to know.

This is the first year I've gone anti-Christmas shopping (which really means anti-shopping) and it is actually difficult to not want to buy a bunch of crap I really don't need or give others crap they could do without. This epiphany amazes me. So everyone I know has gotten food baskets because everyone needs food, or books for those who prefer reading to cooking.

I also realized this week I have an absolute dislike for people who seethe with irresponsibility and those who are passive aggressive. It's stupid I know. Judgemental. Ignorant. I wish I could just be this easy going soul who doesn't get her feathers ruffled over the inconsideration of others but I'm not that good at it. Oh well. One thing I'm working on over the break is searching out books on nonviolent communication. I want to learn new ways of communicating that aren't always either offensive or defensive but open, respectful and inclusive. Happy holidays.

peace!

"Humility has buoyancy and above us only sky"--Ani DiFranco "grand canyon"

Sunday, December 19, 2004

Insubordination among the servants

I'm digging on Derrick Jensen's "Culture of Make Believe" book again now that the semester is done and I can read unassigned material with happy abandon. The title for this post comes from a discussion on the religious origins of the justification of slavery. I am wondering at the moment how our minds become colonized, how norms are chosen, how the value consensus becomes a consensus (or does it ever and is this perhaps a further lie we are told such as the idea of an agreed upon "morality"?) I realize that there are different theories as to how this happens such as Marx's notion of the superstructure, ideological proliferation and domination through dominating mass media, religion and education (one of the TWO questions I GOT WRONG on the soc theory final because I read too much into the question!) Ok. So I realize this. I also realize though that there are people in the constant process of disconnecting/pulling the plug, "freeing their minds" and I'm wondering how it is you can be so aware of how the propaganda system works, so aware of all the bullshit you're being sold, so aware of so much and yet still remain part of the system. How do you get out of it? Can you? How do you disconnect your children and protect them from it?

The root of this happy rant comes from Jensen's brilliant analysis of the word "common sense" and how what is taken to be the norm is simply what we've agreed upon as normal. So if we get together and agree that war, corporate corruption, torture, slavery, racism, sexism, homophobia, heterosexism, hegemonic masculinity, abuse, domestic violence, rape, environmental degradation, sweatshop labor and sex slavery are all wrong, can we end it?
There are enough people who feel this way but apparently not enough to make it stop?
For example, there are frequent stories detailing the raw horror endured by those "detained" in Guantanamo Bay right now and despite prison pictures, despite horror stories, despite everything people here go, oh, well I'm SURE that what is going on down there is just. A necessity. A reality. Well WHY? Why is it? Because we do nothing. Because we say nothing. Because by God we have our OWN lives to live and shopping to do and our families to protect.
Right? WRONG! This stupidity is flat wrong and the fact of the matter is that if it were you or your husband or your wife or your loved one there you'd know it was wrong and you'd hope that the pictures, stories, and court cases would make people wake up to the reality that torture is not just nor is it successful in the stated purpose: to illicit confession. So how do you make it stop? That IS the question for me. How do I as an individual bring about the kind of changes I want to see in this world? When I know you feel the same way, how do we change it? Jensen writes books and does tours. Some teach. Some preach. Some get involved in their various causes. I try to educate myself and others and bring people together to address issues in an open and respectful forum. I don't think this is enough though and so I'm looking for my niche. If you find it, let me know. Until then, I'll keep looking and questioning and invite you to question/reflect/puzzle/ponder/argue with me.

I think I want a shirt that says "Will Agitate for Change" I also like the title of this blog: insubordination amongst the servants. May you never lose your resolve to fight for social justice.
I like the idea of a thought revolution. I think that's where we need to start. A thought revolution. So many people can climb a soapbox and give a great rant but until we find a way to articulate progressive politics in an inclusive way, will we have a chance at making what should be common sense, common? Or will we continue finding ourselves in that stupid rut of being labeled "idealists" and nothing more?

peace!

Friday, December 17, 2004

post-finals bliss

I'm elated in a sort of foggy headachy kinda way...
It is so very nice to be done with finals and be able to read whatever I want to for the next few weeks. BLISS. Anyhow, I want to throw some things out here that I've been pondering lately.

IS it "foolish" to be anti-war as long as troops are committed? Even if you have friends among them? I remember after the first troops were deployed to Iraq (this time) people kept saying, just stop protesting war because it's already going. So you might as well stop whining about it and just support our troops. I watched the film "Regret to Inform" today and I think that it, along with the film "Hearts and Minds" should be mandatory viewing as early as 10th grade. Yes they're tough films but so what, dying and killing is surely tougher. Besides that, teenagers can simulate the experience of all sorts of killers from hitmen to alien killers to police and soldiers, so surely showing them a documentary on war shouldn't piss too many parents off right?

That film is so tough to watch because you see how many lives (and these are the lives of those who survive war, not just those who fight the war) are destroyed by war and all aspects of war. Mothers. Daughters. Passers-by. Women forced into prostitution. Women considering harming themselves to keep their husbands from volunteering themselves...etc. etc.

What is interesting is that so many of the American wives (of soldiers who died either in direct combat or subsequently from their combat experience) kept reiterating "He was so patriotic" "He wanted to do something to serve his country" "He knew that if he didn't go, someone would have to go in his place" That is the thing that gets me about patriotism, sacrificing your life and that of others for a lie that the government tells should make you think twice about serving, should it not? The "Hearts and Minds" film makes this explicitly clear as Daniel Ellsberg explains how president after president lied to the American people over and over about why we were in Vietnam and what our goals were. Do you think it would change if kids were told the truth about Vietnam. From what I've heard from other younger students, they don't see why Vietnam was "such a big deal" and equate war protests with orgies and drug parties. Apparently too, there is a habitual co-optation of songs from the sixties that are explicitly or implicitly anti-war being used to sell war now. Imagine that. Trying to talk to these same kids about Cambodia or Rwanda or the Sudan leaves you with this blank, confused and bored look like why are you wasting my time and yours? I don't know why on both counts. It's SOOOOO ironic too that these same kids know more about the Holocaust and about the evils that the Nazis did (even if their dates and facts are a bit off) than they do about other genocides or other corrupt governments. It makes you wonder what they'll be teaching children fifty or a hundred years from now? What will make "history" then? Hopefully the truth about war. Wouldn't that be amazing if people have finally figured out (in twenty years? ten? fifty? a hundred?) that war is not the first option nor is it the only option and certainly far from being the best option? I hope I live to see that day. Until then, peace!

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

Irony revisited

I have a cold. That in itself is not ironic but what is funny is that I was looking through this book today in which the author argues that illness is a product of negative thinking. I don't agree with her entire hypothesis but I do think she has some funny things to say and some of it is useful.
For example, she writes that the cause of a cold is: "Too much information. Too much going on. Mental confusion." Now, what I want to say in response is, have YOU tried to get through sociological theory? :)
No actual the theory isn't bad. I'm just so foggy headed that trying to revisit Mannheim, Nietzsche, Freud, Weber, Pareto and Durkheim feels like trying to drive in the dark with no lights on.

I was thinking today though that I agree with Patri that "tea is a blessing of some kind." My first instinct when I get sick is to want to crawl into bed and not move but of course, that isn't going to happen on finals week. I've learned though that taking cold medicines and whatnot really only prolongs your illness because it surpresses your symptoms which are really just your body's way of trying to rid itself of whatever virus you have. So I'm doing the alternative. I'm drinking tons of water, tons of unsweetened tea (red tea and bancha primarily) and sleeping when I can. Also I've been doing alot of meditation and yoga. Long story short, it's quite ironic to me that I feel better even though I'm sick than I usually do because I USUALLY don't slow down long enough to feel anything other than tired. I've been thinking also about friendships and how those people who truly love you and value your wellbeing are not the ones who are going to encourage you to do things that are harmful. Rather they're the ones who are going to tell you (hopefully) to wake up and stop doing that sort of thing. I really want simplicity in my life. I've been on this trend lately toward wanting to eat minimally and just rest or just be present and that is nice. This is the first holiday and school break for that matter that I've been absolutely unwilling to engage in the compulsive or obligatory buying frenzy or the worrying needlessly habit that tends to hit me when the rush of the semester subsides. Has all of this stemmed from my having a cold? No. Having to slow down though is part of it. The other part I think is that I have been meeting so many people who are working in their own way and at their own pace to bring about the kind of changes I'd like to see. So their efforts and energy are a constant inspiration. I'm going to resume my studying now.
peace!

Monday, December 13, 2004

Reflecting on the word "occupied"

I have an obsessive-compulsive relationship with words. I am obsessed with understanding every possible meaning and manipulation of words so that I can compulsively arrange them and play with them on a shelf in my mind. Lately, I've been reflecting on the word "occupied" and thinking about how we occupy space. With words, with our bodies, with smog from cars left to warm up, with buildings that block out the sky, during sex, how are you occupied? How are YOU colonized? Hmm...?

What does it mean to occupy something? Is there a power there? Why?
Today was interesting for me. First I went to bed last night at 1 am and got up at 430 am because I was having weird dreams so I decided to get up and clean ("like you do" when you can' t sleep right?) Well anyway, I cleaned my apartment and did yoga (which was great) and then I happened to notice the sunrise and it was so beautiful. I went for a long (cold) walk this morning and kept thinking how odd it was that my nose and throat burned like hell. The sky is finally clearer than it's been all week (or last week) but hey, you can smell and taste stuff in the air that I really don't think belongs there. Despite this, it was so gorgeous out this morning, it made me very happy.

Later in the morning, I was given a ticket for occupying a space too long so now, instead of throwing another quarter in a stupid fascist machine (why fascist, because you can't reason with a fucking machine that's flashing stupidly at you), I'll owe BSU a happy ten dollar fine. That sucks, but I'm still in a pretty up mood. Pretty up the smog. Pretty up the insomnia. Pretty up the blog post on occupied/occupier/occupation. I've been filling the less cluttered spaces in my mind with good music and eating much better than I have in weeks so I feel better at least.
There's one song in particular that I've been listening to all morning. It's called "Closer to the Sky" by Michael Franti/Spearhead. The first lines are so good.

"I'm so very happy just to be here
I'm so glad I'm finally in a space with you
people say that we should never do this
but they don't, they don't wanna know the truth

You can try, you can try
to build a fortress in your mind
try to stack up all your things so high
you can try, you can try
to climb away from this life
but it will only bring you closer to the sky"

Anyway, back to occupying. Occupation. Occupier. Can you occupy a space with the gaze?
Can you colonize another's body with your eyes? With your thoughts? How will you truly protect the last refuge in your brain that the television killer disease hasn't infected/polluted/bought and sold? I wonder, whose heart do you occupy by the grace of their loving you? Who occupies yours?

I'm ranting when I should be studying...escapist tendancies and a severe irritation that there aren't 24 hour coffee shops in Boise. Oh well, one battle at a time baby. One battle at a time.

peace!


"I said, I think we need new responses
every question is a revolving door
and she said, yeah
my life may not be something special
but it's never been lived before"--Ani DiFranco, from "brief bus stop"

Saturday, December 11, 2004

For a price

Continuity
Community
For a price
You can pay someone to listen
to speak softly to you over the telephone line
to make someone strip for you on the internet
to wake you up in the morning
and to hold you until you fall asleep
but they can't quite
save you from your life
they have not yet figured out how
to make things seem less
so they give you more
tell you what to want
what to believe
and if you go along
they'll even tell you what you think.

Their best weapons
really are
manufactured distraction
while we are left talking about deception
the greatest of which
is that advertising mantra
you can't get out of your head
or that idea of beauty that you dress yourself in
starve yourself for
burden yourself with
And they dangle priorities over your head
like a flag
remember those who have so little
but don't really think about them
except when it's convenient
once a year
or during a fundraiser
until YOU become the tax write off
that you never thought you'd be
As they tempt you with that idea
of a family
who you can only spend time with on the weekend
when you're too tired to move or think.
The leaders tell you to shop more
for the good of the nation
bringing people together
to praise the god of mass consumption
while bemoaning those who can't afford food
as being lazy
"criminal elements"
"social drains"
the blame
for the debt
for the war
for the fact that others work themselves to death
in the name of a dream
they may never wake up from.
As credit cards are being used to buy groceries
As the national debt is being bought by slave labor
As troops are playing Santa for Christmas
bringing children the food and bombs of capitalism
gift-wrapped as "democracy"
As families fear every carbomb will bring them the worst possible news
while the Army keeps changing deployment rules
As flags waving becomes the new fashion statement
and bumper magnets replace t-shirt politics
hey
the only reality I want is the one I can hold in my two hands
the only reality I know is the one I can hold
in my heart
the only reality I claim is the one that you give
when you promise to fight forever
for those who have no voice
who have no food
whose language and culture brand them "terrorist"
For those who can't pay that price
to have everything
to hate everything
and destroy whatever doesn't suit them at the time
hey
the only love I can give
is the one that refuses to hate you
the only family I want
is the one that values a world of equals
the only shelter I seek
is the one that is open to everyone
because I have nothing to offer
but words
to fight words
to fight hurt
with a natural valium
to find ways around alienation
and to create windows in walls where the doors
are all guarded by guns
hey
find a way with me
can't you please
find a way with me
to fight the power politicians' iron grip
as their fingers form ghetto walls
around people's hearts
As they make mutant and toxic food readily available
but cringe at the idea of universal health care
I know you'll step up
and speak for me
when they come to steal the last glimpse of hope
by walling up the last free space in the mind
with reality t.v.
I know you will stand here
until they take the last limp protesting body away
even after they replace hostile words
with expanding political prisons, police brutality and tanks
until peace wins the last heart bent on war
I know you'll remain
saying all that they have tried to silence
refusing to be bought or sold
refusing to buy those who cannot protect themselves
refusing to sell a life to protect your own.

--dedicated to those who hold true to their belief that a different, more humane world
is possible and try to create it every day, in every way they can--

Thursday, December 09, 2004

"Here we are now entertain us"

What is your education worth to you? What is it for? A better job? The delay of getting " a real job?" The joy of learning? A necessary evil? What is it mean to be educated? To come from a university such as BSU, rather than Harvard, Yale and so on? Amy and I were discussing this today and voicing our frustration over our shared view that the rush through undergraduate courses such as in depth theory courses for example, really leaves you unprepared for any decent master's program in that field. If you can't even right a good paper or know where to begin conducting research or how to conduct such research with any level of confidence that how are you going to survive grad school? I've heard rumors that our university is pushing its faculty to spend less time focusing on the undergrad portion (make it all standardized tests, rather than paper assignments for example) and more time devoting attention to producing quality grad programs. What about producing quality graduates? I would really hate to think that I have put myself this much in to debt to simply be able to put a piece of paper in a frame and post it on my wall. I want my education to mean more than that. I don't care that this isn't Yale or UC Berkeley because I feel that college is as much what you put into it as what you're offered. So,
I know when I haven't worked up to my abilities in a class that I am letting myself down more than anyone else. I disagree though with the idea that faculty efforts are a waste of time or student engagement is irrelevant. I think these are the ONLY opportunities we have to make an education more than the highly expensive piece of paper on the wall. I won't remain in a class where the faculty appears disinterested or vocalizes this because I feel that that is cheating the students out of their money and their time. Further, I think that the administration of the University owes it to their staff and the student population and even the reputation of the University to prepare its students for more than the opportunity to get a better paying job.
It is wonderful to want to develop new programs and enhance existing ones but wouldn't the university be better off making itself a name by producing the kind of graduates that can go to Harvard, Yale and Berkeley and actually thrive? That says something does it not? Shouldn't that be part of the curriculum and the focus on students rather than simply advertising that we have a mass surplus of fresh workers ready to be plucked up by whatever employer hasn't outsourced yet?

Students have a responsibility as well to get involved and to remain invested in their education and not just treat it as a waste of their time. Faculty aren't here to entertain us or even torture us by making us read more than we feel comfortable or to speak when we'd rather not. I don't have the luxury of treating my education as my sole career (though I wish I could) but Amy, me and many many other students at the campus are more than willing to do that crazy dance of trying to balance our education with the reality of our lives and to sell students and faculty short in cutting the budget, in pushing students through without the kind of depth of learning that they're paying for is a disservice to all involved, especially those who actually give a damn.

peace!

Wednesday, December 08, 2004

Stories we tell

I was having a discussion about the Scott Peterson case and weighing in on the whole death penalty issue when someone said, "You know, she should have never married that psychopath. She should've known better." This comment made me so angry. I said, "Hey, people don't walk around with the words "psycho jerk" tattooed on the foreheads and their police history in hand.
Sure, there are signs but most people don't know them from the typical Hollywood "romance" i.e. the man follows her home after just meeting her and tells her loves her, asks her to marry him after just a few weeks and a few "deep connected conversations" he thinks he's known her his whole life. She is his life. She is the one that will make him feel whole. This then turns sour quickly into the "If you leave me I will die." bit and then "If you leave me I will kill you" or his sweet hands becomes a fist. This that I have written above is not my opinion but actually a story from a book titled "Abusive relationships." This is the story of not just one woman but many many women. I know men experience this as well. One of my most beloved friends was married for years to a woman who loved to threaten to hit him, would walk out on him whenever he asked for anything, and threatened to take their child (who HE raised) away from him. So I DO know that men get into shitty relationships too but it is not so normalized in our society. Violence toward women is something you can see in so many different movies and genres of movies and there's a whole category of "love songs" on the radio that I call "stalker music" because it's constantly talking about a man or a woman who "cannot live" without the other. Yes you can. If you can't seek professional help please because the world really doesn't need anymore damn psychopaths thank you. I think the problem is more deeply rooted than that though. A fear years ago I did an interview with the director of the local agency called "SANE" (Sexual Abuse Now Ended) and she told me a very stunning statistic: most of the sexual offenders were not molested or raped as children. The most common experience they shared was that they had witnessed domestic violence between their parents or their parental figures.
That really surprised me because I thought well surely they learned that kind of behavior somewhere and THEY DID because it isn't such a far leap from thinking it okay to beat a woman (or a man or a child) then to rape or molest one. Is it?

I think about ALL the women I've known over the years who've been beaten by their spouses/partners and comments like the one I began this blog with really really hurt. Because it puts the blame on them. YOU should've picked your man better. Excuse me???
Granted women often don't leave situations when they turn violent but you have to realize that relationships are a process and the guy who seemed "incredibly attentive and affectionate" today might just turn into tomorrow's control freak. Personally I think they need to teach classes that teach young women and men about what healthy relationships SHOULD look like and the warning signs of an abusive relationship. THIS is a THOUSAND times more important than stupid "home-ec" or even health class. Save a life. Teach a girl that she actually has the right to tell someone to piss off if he thinks he can slam her against a wall or call her fat and stupid or even if he tries to get her drunk to sleep with her. Teach a boy that he has the same right to be free from violence AND emotional manipulation. I do not think men deserve to be hurt. I do not think women are always victims either. I think that this is a story we tell each other in our society. Men are this way and women are that. Violence is normal, natural. It just happens to a few sick individuals in sick circumstances. No. It happens SO often. Your children see it and NORMALIZE it. They think it has to happen everywhere. I remember being stunned the first time I went to a friend's house and her parents weren't calling each other asshole and bitch or yelling at one another about her. That was remarkable to me. I thought god I want to live like that. I have known three women in particular who I love with all of my being that have gone through absolute hell on earth to try and "escape" abusive relationships without being murdered for doing so. The year that my most beloved friend managed to get away, three women were murdered in the U.S. in cases so unbelievably grotesque they actually made the news. I say this because so many domestic violence cases don't make the news. They don't even make it beyond the front door. What I would love to see is people asking hey, what is wrong with our society that creates and shapes a man who'd rather kill his pregnant wife than divorce her and give her the option of a life he seems to want for himself? What is wrong with our society that confuses violence against women with "entertainment"? Where do people learn this behavior and how can we make it stop? How can we make the laws so absolutely intolerant of such behavior to make men and women think twice about brutalizing one another? How can we all do our part to stop it? This is SO important to me. You MUST STOP BLAMING THE VICTIM!!!!! Remember Nicole and O.J.? Remember how people asked over and over again, why did she stay with him? SHE DIDN'T. She had left him and still was murdered. By whom, well it doesn't seem we'll ever really know that. The point of bringing it up here is that our culture suggests if a woman is murdered/raped/beaten etc, she is SOMEHOW to blame for that. She wasn't strong enough. She didn't leave. She didn't fight back. She could have left. Why didn't she leave? What about the children? Why does SHE stay with the one who hurts her?
ALL of this puts women and girls in a cage that says if you are in a bad relationship it's really up to you to pull yourself out of it. Society however needs to aid in this and with our social programs being shredded left and right how do you expect her to leave? With no socio-economic support, no shelter to go to and laws that still put the burden of proof on the victim, do you really think that you've made an easy out?

I want to make it crystal clear that I still struggle with the issue of personal responsibility here.
My mother is STILL with a man who hurts her. For the life of me, I do not understand why.
What I know though, is that she IS economically dependent upon him and thinks that if she loves him enough he will just remember that he loves her too. We need to move beyond the whole love as addiction bit. Something that is toxic to you is toxic to you no matter how good it may feel or seem at the time. Still, I also know that after years and years of abuse, she has learned to define herself by every bruise and broken bone. She tells herself to me in stories of pain and I don't know how to change that. I wish I knew how to rewrite it. I know I can't though.
She has to rewrite her life for herself just as we all do. We need to do this as a society though.
A full frontal assault on the images that show women as objects waiting to be possessed and controlled. A full out war on the idea that anyone should be able to lash out in anger with physical, verbal or sexual violence. I wrote an earlier blog post on the Disney movie "Pirates of the Caribbean" when it dawned on me that the girl in the movie is struck by a man, groped and stripped of her gown, humiliated etc by the many men in the film. And yet she is considered empowered. Is THIS the model of the empowered woman that you want to show your children?
Yet this is a movie marketed to kids. It IS an entertaining and funny film. I just couldn't get over that ill feeling when I saw her struck. I thought, God, here I am watching this with my son and my best friend and her three kids, who've actually seen their father do the same thing to her.
That's fucked up and yet THAT is considered entertainment. Normal. If you question it, you're just overreacting. You're just a whiny bitchy manhating woman. You're just making something out of nothing. Tell that to the next woman whose obit makes the paper and story makes the news. Tell that to her family. Tell that to the next Scott Peterson. People seem so outraged that he killed a pregnant woman. What about the fact that SHE was a human being just like Iraqis are human beings and female soldiers are also human beings and "prisoners of war" or "enemy combatants" are also human beings, each with a value of life and a sovereingty over their own person, that someone else feels entitled to end or violate and unfortunately has the power to do so.

Further, I read a blog recently by someone I thought quite thoughtful who was actually talking about how the 'nice guy' is always hurt by women who want the 'jerk.' He went on and on about this and then at the end of his blog read the riot act to women who happen to "not pick their men better" and up pregnant or with a child, looking for anyone they can get. I hate to tell you this but just like you can't seem to find the woman who'll make you her life, many women have the same expectations of men because society conditions us to think that way. I'm sorry. I still feel that you shouldn't try to make ANYONE your life. Not your children, your partner, your husband or even your job for that matter. If you do, you put so much expectancy on the other person that they can't be themselves. No, they're too busy living for you. That is just as unhealthy a mindset as the person who stays in a violent relationship because it too violates the rights of each human being to be their own unique and beautiful individual. I often wonder if part of the reason so many people become abusive is because they never had a true sense of themselves. They were beaten down. Raped. Violated. Or they were controlled and condemned for even wanting anything for themselves. It is ironic that we deem people who don't want to be someone else's life and world as "selfish" and yet a little "selfishness"is not necessarily bad. I think we need a sense of ourselves before we can ever truly love/honor and respect someone else. The reason being, is that every single thing that comes into our life shapes us in some way and everything is always changing. IN FLUX. SO the more you try to hold on to something and keep it the same, the more harm and confusion you cause. The more you suffer and cause others to suffer. A brave and great man can see this. He doesn't need his manhood defined by his ability to control life or head a family as a dictator. He can learn to live as a equal and with the status and security that that provides. The whole cutthroat competitiveness that defines our society and is almost expected from men makes it damn hard for them to actually behave otherwise. Those who don't "get with the program" are considered disfunctional or "Too feminine" or too "weak." Men are beautiful. Women are beautiful. We can be beautiful together. We can be two whole creatures complimenting one another and living in harmony rather than feeding off one another like parasites. Humanity can live from this earth in harmony as well rather than acting like a tapeworm, eating and devouring everything in its path. We need to tell ourselves new stories. First we must write them. Challenge that which says women and men must just "be" this way because of genetics or conditioning. Or that nations must wage war to protect themselves. We don't have that right. You don't have that right. I don't have that right.
We can't MAKE it right either. It is just wrong. Until we can see that, there will be more Laci's with their unborn babies. There will be more Scott's with their warped view of love. There will be more dead children from skies full of bombs or bellies emptied by sanctions. I know I get a bit over the top on my rants lately but if you can sit and listen to that shit on the radio and not get pissed or listen to well meaning people speak about how she should've known better and not get worried, well, then you are contributing to the problem that will create more stories just like this one. More tragedies that we can sit and shake our heads about, shed a few tears over and then carry on as helpless as ever. We need to become better friends to one another. Take a moment out of your rat race life and honor the people who you surround yourself with. Be a true friend and make being a good human being the top priority. All of the other expectations we put on ourselves are so secondary. What will your degree and hot car mean to you if you're dying in a cold hospital room alone and the medical bills are wiping your savings out hour by hour? People think oh social services make people "Dependent" on the system. One day honey, you'll be dependent too and then you'll think twice about that belief. Besides that, the crap that we call "social services" in most states is so time-limited and difficult to qualify for that you'd probably make more money standing on the street corner with one of those "need help" signs then you would begging for money and food from the welfare office or fighting with the insurance company to get them to pay the bills you supposedly pay insurance to cover.

As a woman, I think the man who can sit there and actually speak and listen from the heart rather than the ego is a billion times more interesting and attractive then one who wants to just tell me about all he's accomplished. Likewise, a woman who can get beyond society's perpetuation of the beauty/victim myths is far more lovely than one who is destroying herself trying to please others. We NEED each other. You wouldn't survive without others and neither would I. We owe it to ourselves and future generations to end violence against each other. We really need to evolve. Or at the very least get involved! peace!

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

The beauty in the world

OK, I've been rather, as Kerri says: "Debbie downer" today, so I thought I'd end my blogging today on a happier note.

New direction for the soc salon: we're (amy and i, the army of two) are thinking about expanding it to include poetry reading, movie nights, "debriefings" at I-Hop at 1 am, etc. Possibilities anyway. We might even try a direct action project following in the footsteps on one of our favorite magazines, "AdBusters" and do something on campus like a poster or a collage or something that tries to counter through images the dehumanization of others. We'll see what happens.

Also the word is getting OUT about the salon and more and more people (strangers) are coming up to me asking that they get an invite. COOL!

The energy in the air right now is one of hope. There is anger and frustration, yes, but also activism and concern which is great. That and the leaves changing colors always makes me happy. I could do with a little less wind though. A walk on the beach. A jog on the beach. A vacation, yeah!

My favorite thing to do has always been to jog on the beach in the rain because NO ONE likes to be at the beach in the rain. Well I DO. One of the most gorgeous sights I've ever seen has been lying beneath a canopy of trees watching the rain fall on the beach at the same time the sun was setting. Gorgeous. I miss the ocean badly. But hey, here you can see the stars and the mountains. I'm going to go light some sandalwood incense and have a cup of french vanilla tea and read my book by candlelight. I'm also gonna drag Amy back to our "yoga dates" over the break and perhaps the meditation group as well. She just doesn't know it yet. :) Ha ha. Evil mastermind plotting again. You really gotta spread the love though and not the fear because each one of us really do contribute to the beauty of the world. May you be at peace. May you have in abundance, that which truly nourishes your soul. May you love life with as much passion as others hate it and then some. Much love! Happy happy jen. Namaste.

"And it's never too late, to start the day over
Never too late to pick up the phone
It's never too late, to lay your head down on my shoulders
Never too late to come on home"--Michael Franti/Spearhead "Never Too Late"

Will the real Satan please stand up?

I have issues with the word "morality" because like every other happy word that we toss around politically (love, sin, faith, family, values, freedom, democracy, pro-life, pro-choice
etc etc) there tends to be a "right" side and a "wrong side" to it but those sides are always changing to suit whoever is in power at the time. Now that the neocons get to hang around for a few more years these words take on an even uglier taint. It bothers me because people get pushed then into this little mental filing cabinet which gets smaller and smaller. This means that fewer and fewer people are actually treated as human beings or even individuals. Instead they become groups. Threats. Others. OR they are us, we, ours and so on. Can you imagine what we would look like if we had every little identity marker tattooed on us? Yet we DO this mentally and we DO this often according to whatever our politics are. Here, I don't mean democrat and republican because I like to believe people can actually think beyond those stupid parameters.
I mean our real politics. Our body politics. Our religious politics. Our friendships and families. All of our relationships. All of the things that truly shape us.

Think about terror for example.
Which is more "terrorizing" a man fleeing a hailstorm of bullets with a child in his arms
or the military force firing those bullets indiscriminately?
A bulldozer mowing down houses or the people who throw stones at the bulldozer?
A man, bound hand and foot, with a bag over his head or the men (and women) standing around him, striking poses and laughing?
A child with a fist in the air or the decade of sanctions that starved his family to death and the cluster bombs that filled his playmates with shrapnel?

How about the word terrorist?
Who is the bigger terrorist? A single suicide bomber or a nation full of nuclear weapons
that spends more money on bolstering an already unbelievable arsenal than it does on food, healthcare, or any other "social" service?

Finally think about the word "justice"
How do YOU define that word? Chances are, your definition will vary according to all you've read, all you've heard about, all you've been taught/felt/experienced and your race, gender and class position in life will also shape this. So to me, when I think of the word moral and all of these words actually, I think about the irrationality of fear and hatred and how we always want a devil to make ourselves look good. We need that Satan to blame for the evil in the world and yet we never can seem to recognize the evil that masquarades as truth. Such as bombing hospitals, leaving babies without limbs, without families, without homes, without healthcare, without food or water. If evil can be such a variable thing, can one entity be to blame for it? Perhaps our thoughts are evil. Perhaps our actions are immoral. Perhaps, just maybe, living in gross over-abundance while others starve or die from lack of proper clothing, shelter and medicine, perhaps that is evil? How can you ever actually consider such a reality good? Or just? OR moral? peace!


"And sometimes, we all
Just lose sight
Of the pain that will guide us
From the dark into the light"--"Pray for Grace" Michael Franti/Spearhead

who do you need, who do you love when you come undone?

I just love irony. Love it. Love it. Love it. I especially love the finger pointing bedroom antics of two little lovebirds who suddenly can't see eye to eye any longer.
Case in point: Putin and the Bush administration. One is decrying the other's brutal tactics in handling terrorism. Hmm...I think I've commented on this before. Still, as the world turns right or is that burns? Many important historians say that the leaders of nations should watch who they "get into bed with." Then again, history is only useful to those leaders when it supports the State not when it critiques it. This article from truthout.org put a smile on my face. Better than reality t.v.! The Universe really does have a sense of humor. See?


Putin Denounces American "Dictatorship" in Guarded Language
Le Nouvel Observateur Editorial
Sunday 05 December 2004
The Russian President took a shot at United States' policy Saturday, evoking a "dictatorship coated in beautiful pseudo-democratic phraseology."
Russian President Vladimir Putin took a shot at the "globalization" policy of the United States, without naming it, when he evoked an international affairs' "dictatorship coated in beautiful pseudo-democratic phraseology" during a speech published Saturday December 4th by the Russian presidency.
"The new century is often called the century of globalization. That bears within itself possibilities for economic and scientific progress(...) At the same time the attempts to transform a pluralist civilization with many faces created by God (...) according to the principles of a unipolar world seem extremely dangerous," the Russian president declared during a three day visit to India.
The Russian president warned against the development, within this framework, of "all the threats" that "terrorism, large-scale criminal activity and drug trafficking" constitute.
"Geopolitical Games"
"A dictatorship, especially a dictatorship in international affairs, does not settle, and has never settled, these types of problems, even if that dictatorship is coated in beautiful pseudo-democratic phraseology," Vladimir Putin continued during his speech, which he pronounced Friday at the Nehru Foundation and had published Saturday by [Russian] presidential services.
"Only a balanced system based on international law and the international community's ability to fulfill all these norms without exception can lead us to resolution of the difficult missions that confront humanity," Vladimir Putin added.
After evoking the situation in Iraq, the Russian president continued, deeming that there could not be "two weights and two measures."
"With regard to the anti-terrorist struggle, there cannot be two weights and two measures. All the more so, as terrorism must not be used as an instrument for any 'geopolitical games,'" he said.
Iraq
Russia regularly accuses the United States and the European Union of welcoming Chechen representatives whom Russia considers to be terrorists.
Great Britain has given Akhmed Zakaiev, the London emissary of Chechen Independence Movement President Aslan Maskhadov, political refugee status. Washington has done the same for Ilias Akhmadov, Aslan Maskhadov's representative in the United States.
Vladimir Putin expressed his worry over the "escalation of violence" in Iraq.
Russia is "convinced that stabilization of the situation is possible only thanks to the development of a dialogue between Iraqis (...) and supports the UN's desire for a normalization of the situation."
Recalling his attachment to respect for a political process in Iraq, Vladimir Putin deplored "the continuation of intensive combat."
"All that could seriously put into question the possibility of conducting honest and democratic elections in Iraq at the beginning of the year (2005) as planned," he said.
"Global Stability"
He also evoked the presidential election organized in Afghanistan in October, emphasizing that Russia "knew how difficult were the conditions under which they were held."
"We started from the principle that (this election) could not, objectively, allow the interests of the principal political forces to be taken into account in a balanced way," he said.
The Russian president finally considered that "Russian-Chinese-Indian cooperation outside bloc logic will offer a contribution of the greatest importance to global stability and progress."
Vladimir Putin left New Delhi Saturday afternoon for Bangalore in Southern India.
Translation: t r u t h o u t French language correspondent Leslie Thatcher.
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Addictions afflictions and fiction

The title is a bit misleading in the respect that the only addictions I have is to good conversation and caffeine. I could live without the caffeine but NOT the conversation. Then again, talk isn't everything either. Some people bore you to tears with their ability to say so much and yet say nothing real. I am addicted to ideas and the exchange of ideas and phrases that make me smile or think about something in a way I hadn't thought of before. Don't most people have a love/hate existence anyway? We all know what we like and don't like but most of these perceptions are founded on experiences that are always changing. A stupid example is the kind of food we'll eat. I used to hate squash but now that I know how to cook it, I like it a lot. Or a more broad example, if you've never known anyone who is gay, bi, lesbian, transgendered etc. then you might have opinions of those people as being evil or crazy or fixable even. I heard a radio program the other day about this man who realized he wasn't actually gay after all and now he's found Jesus, is married, has a family and is at peace with himself. Well good for him.
Some people wouldn't be happy in his shoes either. I don't care to find what I don't think I've lost but the idea of being at peace with myself is appealing. I think though that everything in our society encourages a war mentality. War with our bodies. War with each other. War inside the home. War beyond the borders. War behind the wheel. War as shopping/entertainment/change. War as status quo. War as progression/protection/"peacekeeping" and "intervention." War of words. War for right and wrong. War against abortion. War on reproductive rights. War on poverty, illness, rape, disease. War against imperialism. War that wears the mask of debate.

Think about the couples who fight and how the expressions on their faces are like two enemies facing off. Or think about all of the craziness that pits us against each other in a shop-o-frenzy, where the weekend after Thanksgiving people pour into the malls, slam carts against one another and stand in lines for hours to get a few bucks off. Or my favorite example is the trend in reality t.v. that puts people in "competition" with one another for a man or woman, for money, for power, for a nicer house/car/life whatever. Or about the parents who yell at children for losing a game or yell at each other in front of their children because their kids are on opposite teams. It's like the line from the Rage Against the Machine song that goes, "The frontline is everywhere." I think that's actually true. Until I can get over my "need" to compete with you and to win at every damn thing, then can I actually see you as my friend or lover or loved one even? Parents sometimes have such a huge need to be 'right' all the time that they don't even listen to their children and if you listened you might actually one of the best closing arguments or protest song that you could've imagined. But we just don't want to question authority that much. It's not comfortable to cede power is it? We certainly aren't rewarded for doing so. No. You must be the strong leader. The strong man. The strong parent. You must not give in. You must not lose ground. You must stand firm. But, as Buddhist poets love to point out, that which doesn't bend, is the first thing to break.

To me, what afflicts people more than anything (myself included) is this war mentality. This me first and only me mentality that is the product of our social condition because we could just as easily have been taught to truly love one another, to want to protect one another, to share. What is the fiction you tell yourself? What is it that you use to justify this crazy reality and your part in it? I am competitive to a point. I want the grades and the prestige and I get a bit pissy about the idea that someone, just because their parents have money, can be deemed "more worthy" than I to go to an Ivy League University. Then again, I don't believe intelligence should be measured by a test score or whatever title, name and credentials you can put behind your name or on a resume. Some of THE most intelligent, creative, compassionate and engaged people you will ever meet often aren't the ones coming from THOSE places but from the shadows, from the underbelly of the status quo. I'm tired of the war mentality and yet I want to fight it. Does that only perpetuate the problem? More of this happy rant later. Peace!


"We all vain, we all strange
We all drained, we all love to just complain
But nobody wants to seem to get along ya see
We got shame, we got pain
We got blame, we all a little bit insane
So that's why I sing this song"--Michael Franti/Spearhead "Everyone deserves music"

"I'm not worthy of you, you're not worthy of me"--Ani DiFranco "Worthy"


Inclusivity

It is always amazing to me to think about all the things we express in words but also in silences and pauses. Amy and I sat reading poetry last night and it was wonderful because she rarely shrares her work. We all do the whole comparison thing when we listen to others. "I'm not that good" or "I'm not as good as her" and it's like, hey, why can't we just be equals here. Your poetry is just as good it's just different. I can't write romantic poetry terribly well. It's that whole anti-Hallmark grudge I carry perhaps, but most of my "romantic" stuff always ends up being political in some way. I think though that we are political creatures whether we want to be or not because the structrures of power and economics make us political. A woman's body and a child's body for example are highly political. You need look no further than the whole abortion rights issue for proof of that. But also, what came out in the salon we did last week, is that as a patient or a pregnant woman you are still subjected to the same sexism that assumes you, as a woman, cannot not possibly know what's good for your body therefore this or that doctor must tell you. You as a mother cannot possibly know more than the physician about what's good for your child, therefore medical science must tell you. I was actually quite impressed by Amy's stories of telling the nursing staff and doctor's off with regard to her pregnancies and childbirths.

Back to poetry. This semester, I worked one on one (or actually one on two but that's sounds funny) with a poetry prof and a english grad student on "politics and poetry" to examine and challenge the way that poetry is political as opposed to just reading "political" poetry. I learned that the simple act of writing and choosing when to not write, where to put a space, a period etc. is just as political an act or statement as writing about war or genocide or abortion. Also, the decision of what is worthy of being published and being read is also political. So, it irritates me when people say well my poetry isn't political like yours. What? Being able to think beyond the lines of conventional writing is wonderfully political. Being able to challege the very idea of what a poem is and can be is political. I suppose it all comes down to what you are trying to communicate with your work and for me, that is always changing. Amy's poetry was great and I wish she'd had more to share. I wish she felt more comfortable sharing it too. I am always more impressed by the people who have something to say or think deeply about something, than those whose main objectives in life are security and sex. Not that those are bad either but come on...think. Inclusivity is what we need, that and "running, jumping, climbing trees and putting make-up on while you're up there, that's where the sexuality is." (eddie izzard for those who aren't familiar with him). It's really cool to see how much people change and grow in just a few years and when we are fortunate these changes are for the better.

Remember:
"All the freaky people make the beauty of the world"--michael franti/spearhead
"stay human"

"Whatever religion makes you a better human being, that's your religion"--His Holiness the Dalai Lama

peace!

Monday, December 06, 2004

Intolerance

I am intolerant. Difficult. I like to complicate things. I like to challenge ideas and norms and function and disfunction. I hate the cages in the mind and the fist in the mouth existence that so many people lead. I hate the stupidity of such existence. I hate the body-mind worship of the t.v. and the lustful seduction of advertising that robs people of any real connection in this world. If we can't talk to one another, other than in terms of sex and materialism, or sin and hateful religiosity, then I'd rather not talk to you at all. THIS is my intolerance.

I doubt I could be a good teacher because I don't think I could put up for one second with a student who refused to even try to learn in my class. I don't think I could do it. I wish they could create a test that could check for unchallenged perceptions so that people could not graduate without proving that their views have failed to budge in their entire time in college. The core classes are supposed to not only offer a sampling of different disciplines but also to challenge you in every "core" area. I am absolutely intolerant of students who are just punching a time card, waiting for their mediocre grade, hating the people who stand there trying to actually engage them in an intelligent conversation. You may think that college is a waste of time and for you, it must be, if you can't enjoy it and all the wonderful opportunity it affords you. I wish you wouldn't waste others time taking up space in a classroom without ever learning anything from it. THIS is my intolerance.

I don't know if I can fit into any space without trying to change it and this is what scares me.
Are we even SUPPOSED to fit into some preconceived space if it denies and devalues our worth? Do you prefer to be fenced in, kept on a tight leash, bound? Do you prefer the comfort
of alarm systems and airplanes that have the go-ahead to shoot down any potential threat?
Do you feel more peaceful only in times of war? I don't. I am difficult. I refuse to be a prisoner
of such unchallenged thoughts. Are you a political prisoner? Are you a thought criminal? Are you chained to the propaganda that says you're opinion is worthless unless you follow without questioning? Are you free? Are you happy? Are you waiting in a cold chair for a follow up dose
of "reality" "morality" and patriotism? I wish Orwell were alive today. I would love to see what he might write about the year 2004. Or Jim Morrison for that matter. I've always wondered what it might've been like to be able to just listen to him read his poetry. Can you imaging what kind of poetry HE would've written about America today? Or what Malcolm or King might have to say? OR Christ? Wow, there's something to think about. What do you think Christ would say about all that has been done in his name or at least supposedly in accord with his worldview?


peace!

"You can say what you want
Propaganda television
but all bombing is terrorism"--Michael Franti/Spearhead
"Bomb the World" Armageddon version

Sunday, December 05, 2004

Rogue States and Banana Beer Tastes!

Headlines make me laugh sometimes, primarily because I read too many of them I suppose. Gift of insomnia and internet access. Anyhow, these are the buzzwords of the headlines from the Independent. Shocking eh? The UN has grown into an ever more formidable lap dog of US foreign policy pundits but hey, people can now drink beer that tastes like bananas so isn't that swell?

Here is a topic for a better headline. A question of intent...

"This leads us, as always, back to the question of intent. One could say that the corporation and the people who run it never intended to kill anyone, that they were merely trying to make a profit. Presumably, that statement is true, and is also a central point of this book, because the same could be said for slaveowners: Weren't they just trying to make a buck? If you kill someone while you're trying to earn what you perceive as an honest dollar, is the person you kill any less dead (is the murder any less complete?) than if you kill him in a drug deal gone bad, in a drug-induced backyard fight, if you drag him behind your pickup because you've been taught to hate members of his race, or if you hang him because you perceive him as a threat to the way of life to which you feel you are entitled?" (Derrick Jensen, "The Culture of Make Believe" pg 294)


Question intent. Question information. Question justification. Question rhetoric.
Question "need." Question "freedom."Question "authority." Question the "use of force."
Question why it is so important that you believe exactly what you're told to believe...

peace!

Combat Apathy and Ignorance!

Tonight a fellow student reminded me that my hope can prove a bit foolish given how many people really DON'T care and WON'T believe that this government could do wrong despite any proof to suggest otherwise, including history.

Actually, I'm not wrong. He is wrong and to a small fraction of an inch, he is right. He is right that corporate America could give a crap less about people. He is wrong though, in who he has apparently chosen to blame for that point of view and who most Americans choose to blame for the downsizing, outsourcing, and lack of a better world: "illegal immigrants" and would be terrorists.

Here, I would like to offer a counterbalance to this worldview that I find so vile.
Derrick Jensen, in "The Culture of Make Believe" writes:
"Even if we presume that wealth does not cause a concomitant and much broader poverty, rags-to-riches tales ignore the fact that the primary means by which people become wealthy in our culture is through inheritance, with the secondary means being government subsidies. One could argue that both of these lag far behind theft as forms of enrichment: theft of land from indigenous peoples, theft of habitat from nonhumans, theft of habitat for future humans, and so on. But the point, as it relates to this study, is that the tale strongly suggests that if you don't strike it rich, if your American Dream turns into a nightmare of overtime, delayed (at least) gratification, and quiet desperation (assuming no hunger, degradation, and early death), it's your own damn fault. You're too lazy, too stupid, or you just didn't follow the rules quite carefully enough. Or, maybe, you weren't the right color" (384).

Further, Jensen quotes Howard Zinn:
"[Civil disobedience] is not our problem. Our problem is civil obedience. Our problem is that numbers of people all over the world have obeyed the dictates of the leaders of their government and have gone to war, and millions have been killed because of this obedience.
...Our problem is that people are obedient all over the world in the face of poverty and starvation, stupidity, and war, and cruelty. Our problem is that people are obedient while the jails are full of petty thieves, and all the while the grand thieves are running the country. That's our problem" (385).

Our problem isn't that the information is lacking but that people are unwilling to hear it, to see it, to think about it and to react in the ways that prove their humanity by validating the humanity of others rather than denying and violating it. That's THE problem.

Don't speak don't think and whatever you do, don't show up

Today at the soc salon we talked about American apathy. Why can people not see value in the lives of farmworkers and other certain immigrants or the value in making sure EVERY American has healthcare, nontoxic food, safe living and working conditions and the time to spend with those they love? How difficult is this to imagine people? Why would people rather believe that this is an impossibility rather than a very timely and pragmatic ideal waiting to be made real? Well the salon renews my hope in others so that as much as I get down and frustrated and downright pissed off about things, it helps to remember that others ARE concerned about these same issues, despite what the media tells you. Your progressive values ARE moral values. Your progressive ideals ARE American. Being anti-war IS American AND supportive of the troops but also supportive of innocent civilians being massacred hour by hour.

If you get anything out of your college experience I truly hope it is the ability to think critically and see beyond the propaganda. That's what I've learned and what I am most grateful to have had the opportunity to learn. Until we speak, think and show up little will change. I rather like Marcy's point of "putting your body where your mouth is." The factionalism amongst leftists only helps those who like to slip the liberal label around anything progressive and strangle it.
George Lakoff offers some great challenges to this tactic by that the left adopt a set of frames that neither the far right wingers nor the undecideds can manipulate. To me, this frame would be that of human rights. It worries me to no end that people honestly think torture is justified and that arbitrary arrest and imprisonment without charge/trial or representation is justified.
I can only say this: if it were you or someone you loved behind bars or in chicken wire cages or with a bag over your head you'd think twice about that justification. As someone else pointed out (whose name escapes me at the moment, but I think it was Molly Ivins): "if it were you, you'd know it was torture."

Please speak. Please think about the crap you're being sold. Please please please show up. The world needs you to do more than care, it needs you to get off your comfy chair and turn off your reality t.v. and get involved! Picket. Protest. Push. Agitate. Question. Listen. Speak. Converse. Change.

peace!


Words are like hands, empty...falling...open

or like glass, reflective even when shattered.

This post is about frames in language. One such frame is that evoked by the words, or current mantra of Boise State, which is "civic engagement."

What do those words mean if the protests of students/faculty and alumni fail to evoke true change when they do try to engage the University administration?

What do those words mean when the current President says that our soldiers are there to ensure democracy survives in Iraq, while bombing children to death?

What do those words mean when world-wide protests fail to stop war?

What do those words mean when even the one organization that is supposed to STAND for human rights will now support the formerly illegal act of waging pre-emptive war? (See earlier post on UN reform)

Words are like hands, dropped upon the body, falling...open in despair and in hope
or like glass, reflective even when shattered.
The question is, what do we want to reflect?
Is it the fist or the open palm?
Is it to mirror the desire for peace and justice
in the world or is to distort and smear words
such as "peace" "justice" and even "democracy"
with the grime and shadow-film of a war without end

or justification?

Peace!


Saturday, December 04, 2004

Let us synthesize the need to feel "secure" with a dedication to Human Rights

At Boise State University there is a growing tension between the administration and the students/faculty/alumni over the financial contribution offered by Taco Bell, a corporation known for its disregard of migrant farm worker's human rights. Here, I would like to stay true to the "mission" of my blog and through these questions, request/suggest a different vision on this issue.

Regarding the Taco Bell financial contribution and the Taco Bell Arena,
I pose the following questions for further consideration:

1. Has the administration considered seeking financial contributions from corporations that actively support and promote human rights, worker rights and environmental responsibility? If not, why? If so, what has been the response and what can we do as a community, a University, and individuals to gather such contributions in the place of the one from Taco Bell?

2. Should this University decide, as Mary Robinson suggested, to take a stand on the side of human rights and worker rights, and refuse this particular contribution, could it not seek financial support from foundations such as the Carr Foundation or others that center their mission in protecting and promoting such rights?

3. Since students, alumni and faculty have voiced such considerable protest surrounding the Taco Bell/Yum Foods contribution, are the students and community partners willing to make up for the loss or offer an alternative to this funding? One way might be to increase student tuition in support of worker rights since our fees are raised every year already to balance the lack of federal/state funding.

4. Is there reason to believe that the University refusal of the Taco Bell contribution would encourage that corporation to change its practices and perhaps develop a future relationship with BSU as a result of such divestment? This question attempts to understand/comprehend and critique the statement that to refuse such offers would threaten future corporate investments.

5. If the University chose to embrace and channel this protest energy into something positive and mutually beneficial to the students, faculty, administration and community at large, would that not set a new standard for universities nation-wide?

Boise State could put itself on the map as being the university that not only listens to its students and faculty but also is a proactive leader in building ethical financial relationships that demand the same high standards from corporate partners as it does from its students and faculty. I would love to see this University set such an example. Doing so could not only open new doors and establish new relationships with other organizations but also attract the best and the brightest students and faculty who mirror a concern and dedication to the preservation of rights and ethical business practices. This is one instance in which I would not only welcome the raising of my tuition fees, but be even more proud to call myself a student from Boise State and more likely to recommend this University to prospective students. I believe the administration stands at a crossroads, with an incredibly difficult choice to make. I hope with the greatest sincerity that it will choose the ethical choice over whatever temporary security that siding with Taco Bell seems to provide.

Let us synthesize the need for 'security' with a dedication to human rights, one that is not altered in the face of financial threat, but strengthened by it. I believe that this is both possible and pragmatic and offers a chance for a change that is well overdue. peace!

Howard Zinn offering a new mandate for America

This is an excerpt from a fantastic column from The Progressive by Howard Zinn. He is a hero to me, if ever I would claim one. I hope these words inspire as much hope in you and ACTION as they did for me. You can read the whole article in the January 2005 edition of the Progressive either online or in print. Peace!

"It is in the nature of election campaigns to siphon off the vitality of people imbued with a heartfelt cause, dilute that cause, and pour it into the dubious endeavor to propel one somewhat better candidate into office. But with the election over, there is no more need to hold back, to do as too many well-meaning people did, which was to follow uncritically in the footsteps of a candidate who dodged and squirmed on almost every major issue.
Freed from the sordid confines of our undemocratic political process, we can now turn all our energies to do what is discouraged by the voting system--to speak boldly and clearly about what must be done to turn our country around.

And let's not worry about offending that 22 percent of the country (we don't know the exact number but it is certainly a minority) who are religious and political fundamentalists, who invoke God in the service of mass murder and imperial conquest, who ignore the Biblical injunctions to love one's neighbor, to beat swords into plowshares, to care for the poor and downtrodden.

Most Americans do not want war.

Most want the wealth of this country to be used for human needs-health, work, schools, children, decent housing, a clean environment--rather than for billion dollar nuclear submarines and four billion dollar aircraft carriers.

They can be deflected from their most human beliefs by a barrage of government propaganda, dutifully repeated by television and talk radio and the major newspapers. But this is a temporary phenomenon, and as people begin to sense what is happening, their natural instinct for empathy with other human beings emerges.

We saw this in the Vietnam years, when at first two-thirds of the nation, trusting the government and given no reason for skepticism by a subservient press, supported the war. A few years later, when the reality of what we were doing in Vietnam began to show itself--when the body bags piled up here, and the images of napalmed children in Vietnam appeared on TV screens, and the horror of the My Lai massacre, at first ignored, finally surfaced--the nation turned against the war.

The reality of what is going on Iraq is more and more coming through the smoke of government propaganda and media timidity. It cannot help but touch the hearts of the people of this country, as they see our soldiers going innocently into Iraq, but becoming brutalized by the war, practicing torture on helpless prisoners, shooting the wounded, bombing houses and mosques, turning cities into rubble, and driving families out of their homes into the countryside.

As I write this, the city of Fallujah has been turned into rubble by a ferocious bombing campaign. Photos are beginning to appear (though not yet in the major media, so cowardly are they) of children with limbs gone, an infant lying on a cot, one leg missing. It is the classic story of a military power possessing the latest, most deadly of weapons, trying to subdue the hostile population of a small, weak country by sheer cruelty, which only increases the resistance. The war in Fallujah cannot be won. It should not be won.

The movement here against the war must confront the horror of the situation by a variety of bold actions.

We will take up the classic instruments of citizens in the history of social movements: demonstrations (there will be a big one in Washington on Inauguration Day), vigils, picket lines, parades, occupations, acts of civil disobedience.

We will be appealing to the good conscience of the American people.

We will be asking questions: What kind of country do we want to live in?

Do we want to be reviled by the rest of the world?

Do we have a right to invade and bomb other countries, pretending we are saving them from tyranny and in the process killing them in huge numbers? (What is the death toll so far in Iraq? 30,000? 100,000?)

Do we have a right to occupy a country when the people of that country obviously do not want us there?

Election results deceive us by registering the half-hearted, diluted beliefs of a population forced to reduce its true desires to the narrow dimensions of a voting booth. But we are not alone, not in this country, certainly not in the world (Let's not forget that 96 percent of the Earth's population resides outside our borders).

We do not have to do the job alone. Social movements have always had a powerful ally: the inexorable reality that operates in the world impervious to the aims of those who rule their countries. That reality is operating now. The "war on terror" is turning into a nightmare. Whistleblowers from the Administration itself are beginning to reveal secrets. (A high CIA official writes of "imperial hubris" and then leaves the agency.) Soldiers are questioning their mission. The corruption attending the war--the billion dollar contracts to Halliburton and Bechtel--is coming into the open.

The Bush administration, riding high and arrogant, adhering to the rule of the fanatic, which is to double your speed when you are going in the wrong direction, will find itself going over a cliff, too late to stop.

If the leaders of the Democratic Party do not understand this reality, do not squarely address the desires of people in every part of the country (forget the red, the blue, the nonsensical generalizations that ignore the complexities of human thought), they will find themselves tailgating the Bush vehicle as it heads for disaster.

Will the Democratic Party, so craven and unreliable, face a revolt from below which will transform it?

Or will it give way (four years from now? eight years from now?) to a new political movement that honestly declares its adherence to peace and justice?

Sooner or later, profound change will come to this nation tired of war, tired of seeing its wealth squandered, while the basic needs of families are not met. These needs are not hard to describe.

Some are very practical, some are requirements of the soul: health care, work, living wages, a sense of dignity, a feeling of being at one with our fellow human beings on this Earth.

The people of this country have their own mandate."

Howard Zinn, the author of "A People's History of the United States," is a columnist for The Progressive.


Read it once more: "The people of this country have their own mandate." AMEN Mr. Zinn, Amen!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, December 02, 2004

Subversives Unite

I always think about the end of the Communist Manifesto and how Marx and Engels called for the workers to unite. I kinda like the idea of subversives uniting but hey...sometimes you feel like a nut and sometimes people actually vote for one.

Well, enough of the cowboy president jokes.

I was browsing the shelves of Hastings today just thinking about the book titles
because I'm always intrigued by what catchy title authors pick for their books. One that caught my attention was called "Islam: Preachers of Hate." I wondered, and I'm sorry to admit this, but I wondered how they could get away with having a title like that. That's about as stupid and ignorant a title as one can get in my opinion. To title a book about a religion that you obviously know nothing on is just laziness, intelluctually and artistically. Then again, I'd bet there isn't one shred of artistry in that book nor much intellectualism either. Which brings me to my next rant: how do people like Rush or Hannity or (god help me) O'Reilly maintain some semblance of "authority" given their ability to blur the line between reporting the news and reporting their opinion or the Bush agenda verbatim, as news? I just don't get that. I suppose I'd like to see a sort of integrity to things that isn't there. Sort of like the Professor at BSU who "plagarized," of whom I have only one question: would he pass a student who did the same thing he did? I bet not.

Enough ranting. I have to go to work now. peace!


Division

Statistics are not my strength. But there are some interesting numbers that have left my mind spinning lately. Namely:

The number of new HIV/AIDS cases that are reported every hour in India: 90 (from the documentary on sexual slavery and the trafficking of women/girls: "The Day my God Died"

The number that U.S. troops in Iraq is "expected to reach" rather soon: 150,000

Number of errors in our national voting system tallied *thusfar*: 30,000

And though this isn't a number, my favorite WTF headline:

EPA Tests Find Rocket Fuel in Nation's Milk, Lettuce (read more about this on truthout.org)

Say it with me now, What the F*ck?
Rocket fuel...hmm..in the lettuce and milk...what?????

Ok. On a less of a downer note (so that Kerri doesn't think I need Prozac or choose to get it herself after reading my blog):

Number of Canadians protesting Bush's "visit" (can you say solicitation? but we don't need anyone do we? especially not those peacelovin nations that question us): "in the thousands or tens of thousands"

On the Vietnam Documentary "Hearts and Minds" there is this scene where a Vietnamese man tells the director to take his daughter's shirt and throw it in the face of Nixon because she can't wear it anymore, she's dead. I wonder how many Iraqis feel that same way. Or people in how many other nations? There is a picture of an Iraqi boy on truthout who appears to have lost his arms and looks badly burned, he's one of those uncounted civilians undoubtedly quite grateful for our democracy by bombs and bullets.

I suppose we just need to think about the fact that oil has apparently dropped below $45 a gallon recently and that Bush is aiming for "unity and not division" on Iraq. Stay focused now.
The little red terror warning isn't on but be vigilant. Prozac for the vigilante.

Ok back to the non downer stuff...I'm sorry but I'm still thinking about the rocket fueled milk thing. Jesus. Do you think they'll have to change the Got Milk ad to Got Fuel? I liked the notmilk ad that read: Got Pus? Makes you want to go pour a huge bowl of cereal and drown it with milk doesn't it? I buy organic milk but with the standards ever being 'lessened' who knows even if that's safe and what about the children in school and all of the hospital patients who get no choice in their food purchasing or the countless people who can't even afford powdered milk. Or the WIC mothers? Hello?

Well, okay ON to the happier, less disgusting news: 3 of Eddie Izzard's old dvd's are going to be released in the States for "the holidays" so that's cool. Better go and finish Rousseau. Joy. Discourse on Inequality. Actually it's not THAT bad. peace!

"This nothing is so normal
You just stand there
I could say so much
but I don't go there
'cuz I don't want to"
...
"but lookin inside we're the same, we're the same"--Matchbox Twenty, "back 2 good"

"No life's worth more than any other
No sister worth less than any brother"--Michael Franti/Spearhead "Crazy, Crazy,Crazy"

"I want a light of some kind"--Ani

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

What did you hope to learn about here?

It is interesting how different perceptions of you can be. A friend of mine today said that if someone had to judge me purely on the emails I sent, they'd think I was a "total nihilist." So I thought I'd look that word up to see if it applies:

nihilism: (noun) 1. (a) the denial of the existence of any basis of knowledge or truth
(okay, maybe this fits but I'm not so sure, so I'll keep reading) (b). the general rejection of customary beliefs in morality, religion etc. (yeah, I think that fits) 2. the belief that there is no meaning or purpose in existence (I disgree with this) 3. (Politics) the doctrine that existing social, political and economic institutions must be completely destroyed in order to make way for new institutions. (well, replacing the current systems WOULD be nice but only with something more humane).

To further your education in nihilism check out some of my favorite comics. I love comics that are pleasantly subversive so check out the boondocks comics and the comics by Mark Fiore.
Do I need to follow Kerri's example and just introduce myself as "a pinko commie bastard?"
Is that a title or a disclaimer? peace!


Safety net? What safety net?

Apparently being a single adult and poor is really a problem in England as well, for which the societal "safety nets" simply do not provide.

Please read this:


Single adults become 'the forgotten poor'

By Maxine Frith, Social Affairs Correspondent
01 December 2004

A new class described as the "forgotten poor" - working-age adults with no children - is on the increase in Britain, a report to be published today says.
More than 3.9 million childless adults live below the poverty line - 300,000 more than when Labour came to power in 1997. While poverty among children and pensioners has declined, rising numbers of single adults are blighted by low pay, homelessness and poor health.
The study by the Joseph Rowntree Foundation and the New Policy Institute think-tank warns that initiatives to reduce social exclusion are stalling and leaving a growing underclass of adults in deprivation.
Guy Palmer, the director of the New Policy Institute, said: "The forgotten poor are couples without children, single people and the sick and disabled, all of whom have been ignored by government policy on poverty and social exclusion. We have this dramatic target for reducing child poverty, yet there is not a single target for reducing social exclusion among adults - there is not even a dedicated charity."
The report found that last year 12.4 million people were living in low-income households (defined as 60 per cent of median income), compared with 14 million eight years ago.
Since the Government's Social Exclusion Unit was set up in 1997, the number of children living below the poverty line has fallen from 4.3 million to 3.6 million, and pensioners in poverty have been reduced from 2.7 million to 2.2 million.
Yet, despite initiatives such as the minimum wage, and record falls in unemployment, the report found that working-age adults were more likely to be living in poverty today than when Labour came to power. While income support for couples with children has increased by a third in real terms, benefits for childless adults have stayed the same for 10 years.
Steve Webb, the Liberal Democrat spokesman on work and pensions, said: "When pensioners were given a 75p increase there was outrage, but single people on benefits have been getting about 50p, year after year. You cannot carrying on without them falling so far behind that they become detached from the rest of society."
Headline figures suggest that unemployment has halved in the past 10 years to 850,000. But the statistics do not include a further 1.5 million people classed as "economically inactive" but who want paid work, a figure that has only fallen by a seventh in the past 10 years. Almost one third of 19-year-olds lack even a basic qualification, and the proportion of 16-year-olds leaving school with no GCSEs has remained the same since 2000.
About 200,000 households were accepted as homeless by their local authority in 2003, a rise of 25 per cent on 2000; two thirds involved childless people.
Experts said the Government's early success in tackling social exclusion and deprivation was stalling. Out of 50 key poverty indicators, only 10 have improved over the past year, while seven have got worse.
Areas in which poverty problems are increasing include people without educational qualifications and those with chronic illnesses. Mr Palmer said: "When you look behind the headlines, the economy is not doing anything to help reduce poverty. The successes have been where the Government has very actively intervened, for instance by increasing income support for families.
"There are millions on the minimum wage, who can only get short-term jobs and have no pensions or savings. They are being positioned for even worse poverty in later life. What we need is for the Government to focus on this group as the logical next phase to reducing poverty and inequality."
A spokeswoman for the Social Exclusion Unit said: "The department welcomes the report as a contribution to knowledge and understanding. The findings support the need for government to focus on improving delivery for all."

(from: http://news.independent.co.uk/uk/politics/story.jsp?story=588482)

"Six o'clock in the morning
You're the last to hear the warning
You've been trying to throw your arms
Around the world
You've been falling off the sidewalk
Your lips move but you can't talk
Tryin' to throw your arms around the world" --U2 ("Tryin' to throw your arms around the world")